I always find myself feeling very reflective during the time of my birth. I think that this is because I see birthdays as a fresh start, the beginning of your own personal new year; a chance to take what you can from the lessons of the last and move into a new chapter. I feel that now is one of the most appropriate times to share some tidbits of what I have learned about life in these last 20 years.
I have learned, through the wondrous concept of hindsight, that I spent a lot of my earlier years wanting affection and attention from anyone that would give it to me. I have realised now that I am worth more. I am worthy of love. I am worthy of happiness. I am worthy of self fulfilment. I am enough. Even though, my actions do not always match up with this instinctual knowing, I try constantly to bring myself back to the place of self acceptance and self love.
I have also learned how to be honest with myself, which is an exercise I highly recommend everyone engages in. Being honest with yourself creates a harmony of body and mind. I have found that the key to purpose, drive and ambition is trusting yourself to be completely honest with yourself and not hiding what you are afraid of. Fears are okay. It is okay to be scared of making a life changing decision or opening up. What is not okay is letting the fear you feel paralyse you. Like any emotion, I have learned how to feel the motions of it, learn from it and grow from it.
Believe yourself to be strong, even when you don’t feel it. For those who have been with me on this page since the humble beginnings, four plus years ago, would remember that I first entitled this page “delusional ambition”. I was once someone who was deathly afraid of public judgement and scrutiny; I found myself desperate to make people laugh in order to keep their judging eyes far away from me. I would constantly be described by people I came across as “conceited”, “uptight” and “too good for everyone else”. I cannot remember a time where I didn’t have a voice inside of me telling me that I was to keep my head held high and that I was going to make it. I know that without this delusional ambition, I wouldn’t be the person I am today. Belief in yourself attracts positivity.
Everyone you meet is influential. I was once someone who believed that only those in a better position than you are influential. I have grown to see how wrong I was. I truly believe that life is about the connections we make and constantly actioning positivity and love in order to impact another and the cycle flows. Everyone has a lesson to teach you. If you are poorly treated, you are being taught how to be stronger and how to survive. No matter whether the connection you have with someone lasts a whole chapter or a paragraph, everyone you meet leaves an imprint on your finished story.
Finally, I’ve learned (the hard way - definitely) that forgiveness is crucial to health. Holding on to anger and sadness is like a poison that eats away at the physical and spiritual self. But, forgiveness isn’t just an outward concept. Forgive yourself for the mistakes you have made. Forgive yourself by taking the lessons that you have learned from your mistakes and vowing to never make the same mistake again. Forgive others for how you have been treated because, without forgiveness, the cycle of life slows down and, eventually, the hurt overtakes you.
Where has this com from? Ha!